You’re only 15 so I would slow yourself down. Enjoy the porn. Enjoy masturbating. Enjoy being with your boyfriend. But don’t focus on sex right now. My guess is that the majority of the time you spend with him, you’re just fooling around, right?

So take a breather. Step back. Try getting to KNOW him more. More about him, his family, his likes/dislikes, etc. Go on actual dates instead of sneaking off to whatever hidden place you can find to mess around.

I, personally, don’t agree with waiting until marriage, but I respect those that want to do that for themselves. However, I resoundingly agree with waiting until you’re older and able to make better decisions grounded in emotional maturity. At 15 you just can’t do that. You, physically, are incapable of making those decisions, but it’s not your fault! Teenagers have a undeveloped frontal lobe which impacts decision making and impulse control. That’s why I always advise people to wait because the decisions we make as teenagers, especially young ones, are, more often than not, ones we sorely regret later in life.

So if this is what you want, to wait until marriage to have sex, then satisfy your needs in all the other ways you can, but slow things down with your boyfriend. The less you do with him, the less opportunities you have to be tempted with him. Dial it back! By fooling around with him like that, you’re consistently putting yourself in a position to give in to temptation and you know very well that’s what you’re doing.

You’re essentially playing with fire and asking me if it can burn you…when you KNOW it can and will.

Take a step back. That’s my advice on what to do if you really want to wait. You have to make that choice for yourself and stick to it, no matter how horny and how many “fuck it!” moments you have. It’s all up to you. You’re driving the car.